I am so sick of people. Usually I can deal with the shit they say to me, but I am just so fucking sick of all this shit. Let me make things very clear:
I AM FUCKING OBESE.
There. I fucking said it. I get it. It is not a secret, everyone can see it. People fucking piss me off. Where do they get off telling me I’m obese? Like I don’t already know? Well, HA HA mother fuckers, I already know I’m obese. I see it everyday I look in a mirror. I see it every day I eat. I see it every time I feel worthless. My weight has caused not only me, but my family a great amount of grief. I feel like a lost cause because I can’t shed my weight. So excuse me when I fucking say I don’t need your shitty fucking comments letting me know things I already fucking know.
I want to make something clear: even though I’m obese, even though I have weight on my bones, I’M A FUCKING HUMAN WITH FUCKING FEELINGS. I try to pretend the comments don’t hurt, but they do. Those who are thin and feel the need to make fun of those who are overweight don’t get what it’s like. It’s not easy. Loosing weight is not easy. I’ve been trying for years now. And because of my weight, I’m too afraid to date because shitty people like this fucktard make me think that people will only see me for my weight. I want to fall in love someday. But more than that, I want to be happy. I can’t remember the last time I was happy. Do you know how that feels? I have to lie to my family and friends because I don’t want them to know that inside, I am suffering.
And than this shit bag brings my fandom into it? He doesn’t even know how much Doctor Who means to me. How much the Doctor has helped me cope with my feelings of inadequacy. ”900 years of time and space, and I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important.” That quote has helped me so much…and now this guy says that the Doctor couldn’t even save me. We all want to be saved…and now I’m told I wasn’t.
Why can’t people leave me alone about this? Why do people have to constantly remind me that I’m obese? I am so fucking tired of all this.
You’re beautiful. Fuck anyone who says shit like that to you. You obviously don’t need them in your life and in the end you’re going to be far more happy than people like that ever will be. They don’t realize there’s a point in life where you can’t say shit like that to people anymore without consequence.
Keep the people who matter close and fuck the rest. Don’t let idiots like that define your happiness. Keep your head up :)